DAY 64 - WHEN LIFE GIVES YA LEMONS...MAKE LEMONADE!

http://www.write2recovery.com/alumni/full-glass-lemonade/

(Above is a link to a written/audio article I wrote you might like)

For those who follow my blog, my apologies for the multiple days that have passed since I last posted. I don't know about you, but I've long known that life simply does not ask to send you a curve ball. What I'm about to share is not something that is generally "spoken of" in mixed company and I have given fair debate and talked to a few trusted friends regarding whether to post it here. My decision? Well, I started this blog to be an honest and authentic documentation of the ENTIRE journey over the 14 months leading up to turning 50. So I'm going to give a re-cap and update of where things stand. If you've read my earlier blog posts, there had been a couple of breast cancer scares, that resulted in a VERY thorough mammogram, ultrasound on the right side and a skin biopsy on the left side to test for Paget's Disease - all of which showed negative outcomes for cancer - and SO thankful for that.

(I was blessed with this beautiful ride into work)

Well, (I had a breast augmentation in 1995), and this past Friday night at some time during my sleep, the right implant ruptured in my sleep. Saturday morning was when I noticed it and initially found myself really just stunned. I called the breast surgeon who had worked with me with the recent testing and he calmed me down a bit, because my implants were saline and he said this was not an immediate health concern. Ultimately a friend gave me the name of a surgeon that she recommended Jeffrey Wisnicki (Wellington, Florida), who I met with on Tuesday. 

He ultimately told me that I would need to replace the implant asap and both would be done. (This was an extraordinarily painful surgery when I initially had it done - because I was VERY small and they were sub-muscular implants - and I NEVER wanted to do it again.) I've been assured it will not be so painful this time. (I sure hope not)

Now...while this was all going on, I ALSO was scheduled to fly to Houston, TX on Tuesday evening. (Thankfully I was given permission to go, BUT I have to have surgery Friday morning - I will be back from Texas Thursday evening.) So it was a hectic dash from work to the doctor, then handle the financials, go get blood work done, get home to be picked up by the driver, then get from Greenacres, FL to Ft Lauderdale and on the plane by 6:40pm. BUT...then we ran into a HUGE storm and EVEN saw a small tornado on the way. As I went through the TSA area, I had all my hair products confiscated - UGH! Then made it to the gate RIGHT ON TIME...only to find out that due to an electrical storm the flight was delayed THREE HOURS! haha!

(My view leaving Ft. Lauderdale)

(My flight-mate - Jonathan)

I finally arrived to my hotel just after midnight and got to sleep around 2am. I've had a productive trip so far and will be flying back around 1:30pm tomorrow (thankfully my flight was changed from 8:30pm, so I'm not going from the plane to almost the operating room. Now here is the thing...I will be honest that I have been, and AM wrestling with a LOT of emotions. I don't like the idea of another surgery AT ALL. I have been upset with the fact that I've not been able to cycle ANY and will likely not be able to for about a month - though I'm hoping it won't have to be that long. But you know what I realized? That's life! It doesn't have to ask my permission. What's more, ALL OF THIS is really about how I choose to look at it! The glass of lemonade is half full OR half empty and it is up to ME how I will look at it. Though I don't like what is coming, there are a world of people dealing with MUCH worse and I'm blessed to just be able to take care of this. The fact I won't be able to cycle, well...that is just how it is. Perhaps God wants me to exercise my spiritual muscles for a bit!  So, my posts will be a bit of a different nature for a while...but that's ok.

I will likely not post again until Saturday or Sunday, depending on how I am after the surgery...but it WILL be one of those days. Those who pray...your prayers will be greatly appreciated!